Inside My Own Mind

Inside my own mind
there is only you.

memories of better times long gone

nights like this are the worst
when all the work is done
and it's just me and my thoughts

looking lost at the theater
are you stefanie?
you looked so beautiful
that always makes me smile

the special request line
hockey games
not being alone on Christmas morning
holding hands
kissing until you knees got weak
living on 40 dollars a day
snowed in

trying and failing
and trying again
and losing it all

then one kiss one night
the flame was reborn
chattanooga
"You did good baby"

I won't bore you with the details
after all, you were there

and tonight all i'm left with
is you inside my own mind

i see your beautiful face, smiling at me
hovering just out of reach
i reach out to grab it or to push it away
i can't do either

i try to keep busy
keep you out
but it always comes back to you

how are you feeling?
what are you doing?
do you miss me?
or even think of me at all

something on tv reminds me of you
and i pick up my phone and remember
"Don't call me"
and i put the phone down
and go back into my own mind

and think about the woman that I loved more than no other
and the woman that i lost forever

that's all i have now
inside my own mind.